Like Totally

Shit well it's been ages once again but now that ns is over i guess i'll start blogging again. Fickle minded i am. Anyway i was reading my past posts and shit man i made a lot of grammatical errors and typo errors. I guess that's just a part of my lazy nature. Anyway today is gonna be a lazy sunday; like every other sunday....

Well NS is finally fucking over. Shit man i'm so fucking glad that it's over. I mean fuck man. No more having to take taxi to camp (I stayed out and i was too lazy to take a bus early in the morning so i took a cab everyday). Shit man i think i blew about $3000 on taxis. So i'm glad i'm out of ns cos now i no longer have to take taxis anymore. Like poor me! (Self-pity) Poor me got to stay out. Phew... My bank account depleted by $5000 since the day i entered army. That's really sad.

Well my pimples have gotten better haha. It's not so bad now. Previously i could say that i had 100 pimples on my face and i wouldn't be lying. Now i can say that i have 20 and i would be lying! Yeah baby! Awesome. but 19 would be pushing it.....zzzz

Well anyway hm.... let me talk about ns a little bit. In terms of actual skills, i think i learned absolutely nothing. I mean i learned how to fold camo nets and scold people CB, but apart from that nothing solid. However i did learn something i guess. I learned more about myself. You know this might sound really stupid.... OK the number one lesson that i learned was!!! I really dun like to do the things that i dun like to do. Like shit man I really dun like to fold camo nets and shit I REALLY DUN LIKE TO FOLD CAMO NETS. So i think from now on i'm really gonna plan my life out carefully. I really dun wanna end up doing something i hate. That's why i'm thinking real hard as to whether or not i should to do law. Shit man ns really teaches you that you have to make the right decisions and that you should spend your life doing things you like and wanna DO!

Well i also learned another thing. I'm a nice guy haha. Well many people who i worked with during ns thought that i was a lazy fucking asshole which.... I AM. But you know there are so many ways to look at something. I take it like hey you know by not doing things and looking like a slacker and an asshole it makes them look good. Like i remember Weiting complaining that i cleaned the toilet like a fucking retard. But hey man think of it this way. Now that puts him in the good light while making me look bad. I mean what kind of friend would do that: Make themselves look bad so that their friends look good. Gives him the chance to get toilet cleaner of the year award! Shit man only me!! I'm truly a nice guy. One in a million. Muah i give myself a kiss.

Well i've been playing tennis. I'm not really good but at least i'm not an asshole when i play. playing with my dad was terrible haha. He would hit the ball out and scold me for not returning it. I mean it's pretty hard to return a ball that lands BEHIND you. Well if you play tennis you would know what i mean.

Anyway shit i have something else to write but i'll write it the next time. Getting kinda tired and i wanna comtemplate about things.

Looking back

Hey! Well i haven't blogged in a long time. I think eversince i left that god foasaken keat hong camp i haven't. You know When i read my past posts i'm at least very proud of something that i have donw. I was very true to myself and i was very honest with my writing. It wasn't the best but i was very honest.

Well i really have nothing to say cos i basically have told my friends everything. I guess i just wanted to blog

LONG TIME

Ok i'm back but not for long......

It's been one whole long month since I last blogged but you really can't blame me for not doing so. I have been so busy doing nothing. It's a a new concept i learned while at army. It's actually possible!

Well i obviously learned even more lessons. First of all, is trust nobody once again. haha. Ok this is an old one. That stupid fucker! I think everyone knows who i'm talking about. Mister "say nice things infront of your face, say complete fucking bullshit when you turn your back away."

Oh yeah as a consequence of the above i also have learnt that i don't owe anyone anything. I'm just gonna be happy and live my life to the fullest. I don't owe anyone anything!!!! People will just say and do things for their own benefit. Of course donm't be selfish like mr lazy bones, but seriously no point feeling guilty about things beyond your control.

I think some people deserve to be shot. Like mr "i'm so sincere i really wanna help but i can't cos it's beyond my control" Now this fucker is one hell of a fucker. I think he should be shot 7 times in the back and left there to bleed to death.

I realised some people can be so stupid and some people can be so lazy. I can forgive when only one or the other is present, but when both are............

A good quote. Desmond" Billy, were you born from an asshole or a vagina? " This is pure genius.

People can acually shit in the shower cubicle and in the urinals. LIKE WTF. and when they do shit in the proper place, they shit on the toilet seat. When they do shit in the toilet bowl, they don't flush it! LIKE WTF WTF

Oh yeah WTF is my new catch phrase!

OK gtg run will blog again

At Peace

OK I have been at home for about 3.5 months now an i'm finally going back to Keat Hong Camp on Sunday night which is actually today. geez it's that late already.. I have no comment because i'm sure everyone must know how I feel...

I didn't actually accomplish much other than reading 9 books and blogging a little which is very sad for a period of 3.5 months but oh well.. What can i do? However, i must say that i have done quite a fair bit of soul searching. I feel so at peace now because i have learnt some of my biggest lessons yet by merely comtemplating about my past and what I am going through right now

Lesson 1: Forgive and forget. The only one who suffers is you when you don't forgive someone. He or she is simply not going to feel your unforgiveness and suffer from mental stress from it, you are.

lesson 2: Life is too short to be pissed off. Before you know it, you will have a heart attack and trust me you'll be looking back at your youthful years wondering why you spent so many years being pissed off. Life is short so embrace is and be happy man. Ok it's harder whe actually being carried out, but trust me with practise it can be achieved haha....

lesson 3: Don't be so naive. Don't be so fucking NAIVE.I'm not saying trust no one, but seriously before you open your golden mouth, htink very carefuly. I think i have been such a fool at times to have trusted some people with some information. I guess my problem is that i talk too much and i really am very immature for my age. I don't wanna live a life of regret of whatever i have done wrong but I wanna make sure that i will have no more reason to regret in the future....

lesson 4: Confidence... HOW THE FUCK CARES ANYMORE! I dunno why i actually care now a days. I really shouldn't. I'm just gonna be a new age confident looi wen zhen from now on.

lesson 5: There will always be more lessons to learn.

2 issues

First i really don't wanna go back to camp cos it's gonna be so damn weird. I enjoy sitting at home doing nothing. Doing nothing is just my kind of thing.

and I really don't wanna be ungreateful for anything anymore. It's all about having a positive attitude and just accepting things as they come.

hm..

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Honkies

Ok the first thing you learn in GP is that one should never generalise. I don't intend to make this entry a total Anti-Honkie shallacking but, I just want to say a few thing which I have noticed.

Something which I don't understand is the plethora of honkies who are Anti-Singapore. They believe that Sinagpore is the biggest shit hole in the earth where human rights is practically non-existant. I can't blame them but I am pretty stunned by what some honkies can say.

"I will never even think of stepping foot on Singapore." This is what some honkie said. I was pretty shocked. Immediately an image of a 12 year old saying these words was conjured. The reality however is that this guy was around 40 years old. Is Singapore that horrible a place to live in? Is Hong Kong so great? Sure the Wanton noodles are pretty good and yeah I wouldn't mind seeing Maggie Q there but what the hell makes them think Hong Kong is so great? Geez just because freedom of expression is an issue, someone says I won't ever think of coming to Singapore. It's extremely childish and immature. Their sense of reality has become extremely deluded by their utopian ideals of democracy and what feedom is supposed to be.

It's funny that when one becomes so rapt up in promoting something, they eventually lose sight of what they are promoting and just concentrate on promoting it. If Honkies believe so much in democracy then should realise what democracy stands for equality and the right for EVERYONE'S voice to be heard. Is this really what is happening in the so-called democracies of the world? I'm quite sure that the blacks in America aren't exactly cared for that much. The whims of the large corporations are what the elected governemnt tries to satisfy. They elected a leader who doesn't care about what the the UN voted. Even against the wishes of the UN, Bush still invaded Iraq. How come Bush doesn't get trailed for war crimes? Geez talk about hypocrisy.

There is so much more to say but i'll have to carry on some other day. Ciaoz